Simply...in love:)

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You know how when you're sooooo in love, you just want to talk and talk and talk about what and who you love?!
You know how when you feel you're the most special person on the face of the planet -- and because you've got joy overflowing, you want everyone to feel that way too, you'd want everyone to experience it -- so that everyone around you is filled with joy too. It's that kind of feeling you don' want to be selfish about. No, this is the kind of feeling you don't want to keep to your self. I'm not talking about the kind of love you'd want to keep a secret. This isn't the kind of love where you're satisfied in knowing that you love him, he loves you and where you say "let's keep it between us, ok? Coz i'm not really in that place where I want to be committed. I'm not ready for it. I don't want my friends to find out just yet. Maybe someday they'll know about you, but not now, it's too complicated." Nope, that's not the "kind" of love I'm talking about here. It's about that love where you're jumping up on down on a couch on national television and you're screaming that you're in love!!! It's the kind of COMMITMENT you just wanna make, because you know you're committing to someone sooooo faithful, that he will give ANYTHING and ANYONE to you, if he knows it's gonna do you good, and if he knows its perfect for you. I'm talking about a different kind of love here...and I don't want to keep him a secret. I don't want to keep him to myself. I want the whole world to know about him, coz I know the world would be a better place if we all just love him. :)

I'm talking about my dad. I'm talking about my friend. I'm talking about God. I'm talking about Jesus. I'm talking about the one who saved me. That's all Him to me, and more....

I used to think that it wasn't cool at all to talk about "god" or even say the word "jesus." I felt people who did so were a bit too much. They were going overboard. That they should keep their faith to themselves, and let the rest of us live our lives -- coz we sure aren't asking them to do what we do! To each his own, I would say. I didn't get what the whole fuss was about! I just didn't get it, at all. But it was there, it was around me, people who were around me kept on talking about Jesus, and i just kept them there, to the side. I was enjoying life way to much to give up smoking and drinking and partying. Till i came to a point where i knew I needed help. before that point, i kept on saying, "i don't need help. I'm fine. Nothing is wrong with me. I'm doing ok. I'm alive and well, and living my life. I've got problems, but I can solve them on my own, thank you very much" -- and all that time I strived sooooo hard to figure everything out on my own. I relied on my finite mind, and other people's finite minds, to explain what was going on, how things happened, and what else is gonna happen. It came to a point for me where my situation was just way bigger than me. Bigger than anyone or anything i knew. And when I was at that lowest point, and I hit rock bottom, that's when I screamed out for help. It's normal. It happens to a lot of people. It's nothing new. When you're desperate, that's when you cry out -- to who? Well, you start out with the people around you or the things you used to believe in and do, to drown you from reality, but when none of that works, and none of the escaping works and you're tired of running...then you'll finally remember the people who were around you who kept on talking about their God, how happy they are even if they've got truckloads of problems too...then you decide to finally, give it a try...your lips open and you scream "HELP, GOD!" and you feel it doesn't work, you feel he doesn't hear you, so you scream again, with all your might, all your strength, all your being, and then you feel that he's there, just in time, in fact, His timing was perfect, just before you fall off that cliff. He picks you up with his hand bigger than anything you could ever imagine. Bigger than any problem you've encountered, then picture this, that hand brings you to a safe spot, and he puts you down, and you're like, "wow!" And because you're in a place so safe, and you feel and you know and you can't deny that he saved you, you want to know this God who showed you he cares, no matter how hard you tried to ignore him in the past. so you get to know him more and more until you feel more loved every single day you're with him. Until you come to a point where you know you'd wanna say, i don't ever wanna go back to the way i used to live. You realize that this God people have been talking about isn't a boring God. That you can still party and live a fun-filled life -- coz he wants us to be happy. In fact you realize, that the parties, your life, is far more exciting now than it has ever been. You realize that you still have problems, but now you don't panick, coz you know that you've got God -- and you know for a fact, and you've felt that he is far bigger than ANYTHING. Then you walk with him, and live the life he's planned out for you... He commits to you...and you commit to him....and this is what you start to hold on to, and this is how you start living your life....

Your lives must be totally obedient to God, our personal God,
following the life path He has cleared, alert and attentive to everything he has made plain this day.
- 1Kings 8:61 (The Message)


If not, I pray that we all think about committing to God..and how committed we are to God...simply because He is fully committed to each and every one of us...NO MATTER WHAT...it's just that sometimes, we don't want His commitment...but you know what? He'll gladly accept our commitment to Him, anytime. :)

I just felt like sharing that.. I just had to share how amazing I feel... How I'm not scared to be called a Jesus freak. It's ok. They're just words. I can take that for Him....They're just words and looks thrown at me...that doesn't compare to how he died for me and saved me....

I just wanted to share this coz i know how it'll make God smile and how it'll make him happy when we decide to commit our whole heart to Him. That's how amazing God is. That's how loving He is. That no matter what we've done, or where we've been...He's waiting for each and every one of us every single day to say, that He is our father and we are His kids...

If you're reading this and you feel like no one can ever love you anymore, you know what? God loves you. No matter what you've done or where you've been or who you are. God isn't like us humans, that's why He can love ANYONE - simply because HE IS LOVE. If we feel broken and betrayed because of what other people have done in our lives, and we feel we can't trust ANYONE ever again, then it's ok to trust God. It's safe to trust Him. He isn't like any other person -- He can heal ANYONE, and He knows how to heal you, simply because HE MADE YOU -- so He's perfect to restore you because He knows you inside out. :)

Now I totally get it, how they just talk and talk and talk about Jesus. It's way too big and great and amazing to keep to yourself. That's why. You just gotta share it.

Now, I'm one of the people I used to hate. Now I'm one of those people who are kept to the side. But it's cool, because I know it's a side that can never be ignored, it's there, at the back of your mind. You know what's amazing too? The people I used to hate for talking about God where just there, they too, like God, were waiting, and when I called out for help, it was as if i never kept them to the side. :)